After a long Sunday, the thought of finishing the day with youth group
is not the greatest. So I sit down and try to prepare and gather the
few thoughts that I have as I attempt to make something out of nothing.
Once I have gone over what we will look at, it dawns on me that i have
not prayed and asked for the guidance that I so desperately need. So I
spend the next few moments in prayer asking God that he works in these
young peoples lives today, that he gives them the confidence to trust
each other and actually say what they really think even if it goes
against Him. Now that i have prayed I feel slightly better and also
have an idea for how to finish the evening in prayer.
Well the group starts and everyone is chatting and we are having fun,
we then start the topic of the evening and everything just goes from
there. It was great they were challenging each other, they were asking
each other personal question (really getting to know each other), God
had really answered my prayer. Even at the end when I asked them to
share stuff about their families (for so many young people this is such
a raw painful subject) they all jumped at the chance. they wrote down
real issues that they were having with their families, God was really
moving!
It was an amazing evening, the kind that really infuse you to carry on
with youth work, the glimmer of hope that reminds you that God is still
in control no matter what anyone else thinks.
Monday, June 28, 2004
Friday, June 25, 2004
the rug has been pulled
it feels as if the rug has been pulled from underneath me. To see
England leave Euro 2004 like that was heart breaking.
It seemed as if it was 11 v 12 tonight.
Nothing else to say really.
England leave Euro 2004 like that was heart breaking.
It seemed as if it was 11 v 12 tonight.
Nothing else to say really.
Thursday, June 24, 2004
It's all about the fuzzy feeling
So far so good I believe the saying is, day 2 and I am still blogging.
Being able to do it via email makes life easier, and it is all about
making life easier.
Everything we seem to do now has to be easy or it is not worth doing,
we need that instant feel good factor or we just give up. In school I
have people ask me why am I a Christian? I tell them that it is what I
put my hope in, God is their for me, He listens to me Jesus paid a
price I could not. Then I sit back and think this all sounds great,
but what about the other side? The side where people mock you for
standing for what you believe in? Even people close to me will
sometimes put me down for following something that they do not
understand (or even sometimes do not want to understand). Where is the
feel good factor here? There is no fuzzy feeling, just heart ache.
As I look at the bible I see that Jesus did not call us to live a great
life that is full of happiness, health and wealth, but to live a life
pleasing to God! Maybe this is the feel good factor, pleasing God - I
know that that is true but it is hard to remember when life gets you
down.
Having faith is hard work, some days I feel I have lots other days I
have less than a Luton Town football fan who in his heart says we will
be in the premier ship soon but knows in his head no chance. WHy
should I hang on in their when it seems all around me give up on
everything at the first sign of trouble? Young people in school are
the classic examples, the half try something, think that they can not
do it so they just give up. I do not believe that they learn this
themselves, but believe that we as their examples are showing them
this. Marriage break ups, at the first sign of trouble some couples
are already on the solicitors door step. We all say that it is to
hard!
Having faith is hard but it is also what picks me up when I feel I have
been kicked to the ground. Check faith out for your self, don't just
take my word for it - read the gospel of Mark.
Any comments let me know.
Being able to do it via email makes life easier, and it is all about
making life easier.
Everything we seem to do now has to be easy or it is not worth doing,
we need that instant feel good factor or we just give up. In school I
have people ask me why am I a Christian? I tell them that it is what I
put my hope in, God is their for me, He listens to me Jesus paid a
price I could not. Then I sit back and think this all sounds great,
but what about the other side? The side where people mock you for
standing for what you believe in? Even people close to me will
sometimes put me down for following something that they do not
understand (or even sometimes do not want to understand). Where is the
feel good factor here? There is no fuzzy feeling, just heart ache.
As I look at the bible I see that Jesus did not call us to live a great
life that is full of happiness, health and wealth, but to live a life
pleasing to God! Maybe this is the feel good factor, pleasing God - I
know that that is true but it is hard to remember when life gets you
down.
Having faith is hard work, some days I feel I have lots other days I
have less than a Luton Town football fan who in his heart says we will
be in the premier ship soon but knows in his head no chance. WHy
should I hang on in their when it seems all around me give up on
everything at the first sign of trouble? Young people in school are
the classic examples, the half try something, think that they can not
do it so they just give up. I do not believe that they learn this
themselves, but believe that we as their examples are showing them
this. Marriage break ups, at the first sign of trouble some couples
are already on the solicitors door step. We all say that it is to
hard!
Having faith is hard but it is also what picks me up when I feel I have
been kicked to the ground. Check faith out for your self, don't just
take my word for it - read the gospel of Mark.
Any comments let me know.
Football is life
As I am getting ready to sleep all I can think about is how football is taking over my life. i am dreaming of seeing England lifting the cup on the 4th July. i feel so happy to see that Germany and Italy are going home, I am working out who we will be playing in the semi's and also how fantastic it will be when we meet France in the final and reclaim the victory that was stolen from in our first match.
As this runs through my mind I also think I really must work out my proirities, oh well that will be on the to do list for tomorrow.
As this runs through my mind I also think I really must work out my proirities, oh well that will be on the to do list for tomorrow.
Start Blogging
I have heard a lot about blogging, tried it briefly (check out youth
work blogg) but have not yet been committed enough.
After reading a few other peoples bloggs I thought that I would try
again, I have not doubt I will be repeating these words again.
I guess that because it is my blogg I can talk or type, about anything
that I want. Well today has been a rather strange day, as i entered
school it all started. A young person who I work with was sitting in
reception, so I said hello, how you doing and so on. i then asked her
how she was doing, she said that she is not well and going home. I
know this the norm for any school kid, but I know about her and just
felt really sad for all that she is going through.
Next I went to some teachers in school who are great and are now good
friends, they too were have a hard day. I talked to them about what
was happening and it was all about what the mentees were going through.
I left school today with a heavy heart, I just had a lot of these
young people on my mind. I could not stop thinking about all that they
had to go though at such a young age. I spent some time praying for
them, but then started to think how can I help and support them? To
this question I am still looking for divine answers.
It has been fantastic in school recently, just getting to know teachers
better and feeling like I am becoming a real part of the school. As I
am going to be going full time LCET and leaving the church youth work,
I still feel slightly nervous, it has not helped not being able to
share with all my church family that I am leaving. I am sure everyone
will find out soon.
Other life struggles, but these are personal. i really want to have a
God centered life but am always facing the same struggle... forgetting
to look to God daily. I am trying to re-learn and start each day with
some worship and prayer, I will keep you posted.
Any way that is enough for now or I will have nothing to talk about
later.
work blogg) but have not yet been committed enough.
After reading a few other peoples bloggs I thought that I would try
again, I have not doubt I will be repeating these words again.
I guess that because it is my blogg I can talk or type, about anything
that I want. Well today has been a rather strange day, as i entered
school it all started. A young person who I work with was sitting in
reception, so I said hello, how you doing and so on. i then asked her
how she was doing, she said that she is not well and going home. I
know this the norm for any school kid, but I know about her and just
felt really sad for all that she is going through.
Next I went to some teachers in school who are great and are now good
friends, they too were have a hard day. I talked to them about what
was happening and it was all about what the mentees were going through.
I left school today with a heavy heart, I just had a lot of these
young people on my mind. I could not stop thinking about all that they
had to go though at such a young age. I spent some time praying for
them, but then started to think how can I help and support them? To
this question I am still looking for divine answers.
It has been fantastic in school recently, just getting to know teachers
better and feeling like I am becoming a real part of the school. As I
am going to be going full time LCET and leaving the church youth work,
I still feel slightly nervous, it has not helped not being able to
share with all my church family that I am leaving. I am sure everyone
will find out soon.
Other life struggles, but these are personal. i really want to have a
God centered life but am always facing the same struggle... forgetting
to look to God daily. I am trying to re-learn and start each day with
some worship and prayer, I will keep you posted.
Any way that is enough for now or I will have nothing to talk about
later.
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