Fast spin is here!!

Well today is a good day in many ways as we now have the long awaited
washing machine!! I can now create the wet cloths for the tumble
dryer.

I have not been to good at this blogging thing, I keep forgetting.
Well life has been hard recently as I had to make major decisions that
affect all of me not just certain areas, but every area. It has been
hard and it will get harder but I feel that it is the right thing to
do, that does not make it any easier, if only!

It is funny how when you go through a tough time it makes you evaluate
everything and how it shows so much about yourself, the good and the
bad. I have realised that I am extremely secretive and do not share
how I feel on any other level than a superficial level. I can not bare
the thought of being open and venerable to anyone. I have found out
how high I rate trust in any relationship. I have found out that i
have so much baggage that I must deal with, and that is really hard as
we all like to think that we have it sorted, so when we realise that we
are not as sorted as we thought we were it is crippling.

I am guessing that the next few months may be the hardest of my life so
far as I am going to have to face some of my fears and also put myself
in a very venerable position. Just the thought scares me.

Well I think that I have shared enough already. Speak to you soon.