Everybody hurts

When we make big decisions in life they can affect many people, even
when we know it is best for us, it does not take away the pain that we
feel when we see people that we love hurt.

Recently (a few months ago now) I made some decisions that affect lots
of people that I love and care for very much. Each day I have to deal
with some guilt for hurting them, I have to deal with the fact that
some of them think I did the wrong thing, I get encouragement from some
that think I did the right thing for me and others just do not say
anything.

I now have to face the new challenge of just getting on with my life
and trying to leave that guilt and pain behind (easier said than done).
Also the challenge of becoming more open as a person, blogging is
helping. I do not want to be someone that people look at and think
'he's got it all together' I want to give off a real view, I want to
let the guard down a bit, show that I am human too.

I have been challenged to be more open with some people that are close
to me, this has been hard but also rewarding, each time it feels as if
a little weight has been lifted off.

I am only a short way on this journey of openness, a journey that I am
sure will never end as I do not see myself ever being someone who
shares everything with the world and it's mother, but I plan to be more
open to all and especially those closest to me.

All I can say is keep reading!